My name is Jennifer Rose Howard-Smith. I was born in Sudbury Ontario Canada, but grew up in the city of London, Ontario. I currently reside in Brampton, Ontario with my beautiful Daughter and boyfriend.

I have 1 older brother, 1 younger sister, and 1 younger brother. So in all there are 4 children in the family.

I decided to write this blog because I'm always posting stuff on Facebook so often from my cell phone, that someone suggested that I start blogging. So we'll see where this gets me.

I had a lousy childhood. I admit it, it sucked. My family life was pretty good. I had the best parents any kid could ask for. My childhood was lousy because I was a geek. Through and through. Kids of all ages HATED me. Don't ask me why. I may not have LOOKED like them, long hair, pretty face etc etc, but I thought that I was just like everyone else. My boyfriends says that maybe I was picked on because I have too many opinions about everything. HA HA. The thing is, I NEVER spoke to anyone for fear they would tease me, or worse, kick my ass. I remember in grade school at St. Mary's Choir School, sitting on a bench, quietly reading a book. I can't even remember what book, I just knew that I was reading it for English class. And then next thing I know, I feel a pebble hit me in the head. And then another, and another. Yup, some moron of a kid thought it would be funny to chuck stones at me. I just ignored it. And then one hit me REALLY hard in the cheek. That was it! I stood up and told them to f off. Of course, I GOT IN TROUBLE for swearing because that wasn't allowed in a Catholic School. But that's not where it ended. This GUY (yes it was a boy that was doing this to me) thought he would retaliate with a glass pop bottle. As I turned to walk back to my seat on the bench, something hard hit me straight in the back, right in the middle where my spine was. And BOY DID IT HURT! So I got back by picking it up and chucking it as hard as I could and smashed him square in the back of his skull. Of course I didn't mean to hurt him as bad as I did. I was just so sick and tired of being the brunt of all the jokes.

Funny thing, is some of you might remember this if you know me and went to that school with me. I was always being spit on, hit, kicked, tripped, punched, all because I was DIFFERENT.

Hagard, Howard the Duck, loser, geek, moron, and the worst one of all....BUSHPIG! I HATED that name. Only because I knew they called me that to make fun of me. I tried my best to ignore it. I would hear kids calling me that when walking home from the store and just ignore it, only to break down into tears in bedroom when I was alone when I got home. It sucked. I know that kids can be cruel, but man, this was beyond cruel. And I will NEVER forget what my guidance counselor asked my parents in front of me when they met with my school. "Are you sure there's nothing Jennifer's doing to bring this on herself?" ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? I wanted to punch my counselor in the face when she said that. And I think I was only in grade 6 or 7 at the time.

The thing is, I went to John Paul II high school to completely avoid the St Mary's kids in hopes that my rep wouldn't follow me. It only took 3 ppl going to my school from St Marys to ruin any hopes of making any decent friends. BUT ALAS! There's hope. I met Lauren in grade nine. Shes like the older sister I never had. Only a year old, but still. Older...lol. We have been friends for 20 years September of 2010. That's a long time! Holy! Anywho, yeah, we hit it off right away. I met alot of people through her. I love her like a sister, especially for all the times she defended me when someone picked on me.

Then in Grade 11 I transferred to St Thomas Aquinas to keep from being picked on. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't picked on NEARLY as much at JPII as I was St Mary's, but still, it sucked. I longed to be the pretty popular girl that all the guys liked. Oh, I had boyfriends, but most of them were either making bets with their buddies to see who could get me in the sac first (which of course never worked (I might have been nerd, but I wasn't STUPID!), or they were geeks themselves, but I really liked them.

In then end, I ended up following my dream of singing and biting the bullet. I decided in my final year of high school (or what I thought was to be my final year) and transfer, in grade 13 (OAC @ that time) to Catholic Central High School ... CCH. I was TERRIFIED. All the St. Mary's kids when there after elementary school. By this time, I still had my stupid glasses, but I had a figure (yes I had boobs...lol), I was tall at 5'7", and only 130 lbs, so I was model thin, and had FINALLY grown my hair out long, ALMOST to the middle of my back.

No one who I was until the teacher was going roll call and called out my name...."Jennifer Howard-Smith"....I responded with "here". You should have seen the looks on the peoples faces...and I recognized them all, they hadn't changed a bit.

Okay, so after that class, I had a bunch of ppl come up to me and start talking to me. These were ppl who under any other circumstance, would NEVER have talked to me in the past. They didn't become my instant friends, but I wasn't picked on NEARLY as much at CCH as the other schools.

Now, the reason I say this was SUPPOSED to be my final year of high school is because my choir conductor and teacher, Mr. Ted Gorski (THE BEST TEACHER AND MY INSPIRATION IN THE WORLD!) actually asked me to stay on an extra year, because they were going to Europe the next shool year during March Break to sing for Pope John Paul II. How many ppl do you know that can brag about that huh? And yes, it's on my resume as an acheivement. It's a real attention getter, that's for sure.

Anywho, that's pretty much my childhood in a nutshell.

Since then, I have loved, hated, despised...lol. I have been married for a total of 1.5 months to someone from London before I decided to leave his abusive butt (not putting names here), engaged again to someone from London only to have him cheat on me (an now he lives in Brampton and is a Brampton Transit driver...go figure....I don't have a license), and then I met HIM. My current boyfriend. Love him to death. Yeah, we bicker constantly. But in the end, I love him to death. What relationship doesn't suck at times?

We have a beautiful daughter. She was a big fat surprise since he didn't want anymore children. But we don't regret her at all! She was born 15 days early at 8 lbs 1 oz, 20 inches long, full head of dark black hair, and dark chocolate brown eyes (just like her daddy's) on September 20th 2007. We name her Liahnna (LEE-AH-NAH) Janice (after my mom) Maria (after his mom) Barbosa. Liahnna Janice Maria Barbosa. Yeah, that's a long name, but its the best!

This is where I sign off for tonight. Its' getting late and I need to put my daughter to bed... :)

Good night all.

Jennifer